Ok you have to go back and read Magnets n Mixed Signals to get this one so do it right now...I'll wait....ok....you good? Good. I spent over three hours on the phone w Sam and I'll have admit I was a little overboard in the aformentioned blog. I failed to realize that just maybe the night wasn't about me and it coulda been about something way more important--like say I dunno--a $50k investment going horribly wrong. I have to be honest, I felt a little stupid once he explained and apologized that I felt he was rude to me and my friends .We agreed he has a temper and was really heated that night. He was thinking about knocking people out over issues with the DJ, dresscode, bar tabs. I was thinking: this dude "loves to open old wounds." Ha. Sometimes, I am a little too into my own mind.
Now he and I had the chance to talk about why we just cant seem to work--we always are fighting over the little things and I end up apologizing for everything just to calm him down. We both agree that he is an asshole as well. He's from Brooklyn--they say they make REAL men in Brooklyn lol. He just has that "I don't give a f*ck about anything" attitude and he says what's on his mind. And I appreciate that in him. If you've read my blog "Where's all the men at?" then you know how I generally feel about men. This guy is so real that I can't help but be attracted to him. A lot of dudes out here are fake and I love that he can point it out. He is impressed by no one--not even himself--always trying to better himself physically, financially, and mentally. He was suprised at how long we've known each other and been going through all this and asked me if the reason I can't let go was because his "love game" was so on point. Although it's hands down the BEST I ever had--that's not why. It's because as I an independent woman I appreciate a man that is able to handle a man's role as my counterpart. I trust his intuition and I trust his confidence. And yeah--his body is incredible ;)
In conclusion--just between us girls--I'm glad I had the courage to answer he phone the fifth time he called haha. We were having a heated argument over NOTHING and he hung up on me. I proceeded to let him call back and cuss out my voicemail a few times. Ish got serious--I shed a few tears--and then we both took a second to let the other say their piece. I'm not saying that he and I will be together. I'm saying we care about each other enough to apologize and set things right. We bump heads more often than not--he says im annoying I say he's an asshole--he says I'm hardheaded I say he's bipolar lol--but in the end we have this unspoken agreement to respect each other. So no matter what guy drama you have--exes or currents--mutual respect will go a long way.
Stay beautiful inside and out!
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