The Boomerang Theory

I'm sitting in my aparment wearing my most recent ex's T shirt, trying to get in touch with my current babe (not the one from Boyfriend #2 lol) and talking to my first ex ever making plans to see him on Saturday(not SEE him just see him ladies--there's an event lol)

In the ex files mentioned, I came to learn that I was what Monica would call a "sideline h**" yet I still talk to these dudes almost two years later. My first ex ever--lets call him Sam-- actually was a weird one because he was a sideline but was in love with the girl. And I was the young fool who happened to meet him when they were on a break and just never could win his heart like she did. T shirt ex turned out to be a user and a coward with a girlfriend as serious as a heart attack while he stayed with me for weeks on end. Him and I had been on again and off again for a year and a half. Found out him and his girl had been together for around four years. Ouch. I know. Note to people with brains: Myspace is not your friend if you are trying to date more than one person at once. Twitter is definately not your friend either.

If you know me well, I call myself "The Repeat Offender." I never seem to date new guys just the same old heartbreakers. I guess I have this belief in The Boomerang Theory all twisted up. If you have never seen "Little Black Book" you should. Or maybe you shouldn't. It may keep you hanging on to love that should be let go. Duffy says "I know I'm wrong for hangin on..." Sometimes I feel the same way. The Boomerang Theory is you throw someone out into the world and if it's ment to be they will come back to you. How beautiful is that?

In conclusion--just between us girls--I am guilty of settling for second place with both of these men but I can't seem to stop the butterflies when I see their names on the caller ID or get sucked back in after months without communication when they think they need me again. And yes, there's two. I don't think I know who is my boomerang just yet because the signs are strangely parallel with both. Everytime T shirt ex disappears for a minute he comes back stronger than ever. Sam started out rough and mean but everytime we start talking again he is way more open and shows that he cares about me more and more.T shirt ex is fun and can play the "love game" and Sam was my first everything. He's definately man enough for me and can play the "love game" better than T shirt ex. But yeah, I'm seeing someone else now so I really shouldn't be talking about either of em.

Stay beautiful inside and out!